“Sometimes I feel like the only thing I do is go round and round and round and round and round. The same thing, a cycle, an endless stream of the same. Going to sleep is the only thing in my life that I look forward to. Its the only moment that I feel like I can be rid of this static state, of this cycle of nothingness, of temporal pause. I feel as if can’t move, like I can’t breathe and I can’t change.”
Being stuck somewhere you don’t want to be can be the most frustrating and upsetting moment in your life. It can make us feel as if our static lives make us feel worthless and unworthy, as if nothing could change the fact that we are unable to move on. Trying to move can feel fruitless and an almost impossible task, something that you don’t have the energy to keep pursuing.
But pursue we must, because without it, we will never move; the static will continue and we will remain in constant and perpetual sameness. We must continue to pursue something better because these moments of static are exactly that; they are mere moments in our lives, and not their entirety. We will change and move and live more, but we have to get past these moments in order to see it. We have to move on in order to retrospectively look back and see that we were always able to move on.
Scribbling with stardust.